I was thinking the other day about how we are not actually free beings. We are born onto the earth and are hopefully told that we can be whatever we want to be when we grow up. But that's just not the way it is, because it's not the way of 'things'. While we may not be determined, we are specific. Have you ever looked more deeply into your astrology? Pick up an astrology book and read through all the signs of the Zodiac, there will be one or two of you that will feel like they are describing your personal autobiography. There may be one or two others that you kind of resonate with if you're a open person, and the rest of them will feel foreign. This is because we aren't, and cannot be all things in the human form.
We incarnate not to be all things. In the world of god and light, angel and spirit, soul and cosmos, all things are One, probably in the most literal sense of the word. There is probably the feeling of the most profound interrelatedness even amidst our also present individuality. Here, individuality is why we're here. We are here to have certain experiences the soul is longing to have to evolve as a spirit being....which all of us are. Our 'choices' then are not limitless, we cannot be whatever we want to be when we grow up, we are actually drawing from a relatively small pool of available reality when we make the choices we make. the rest of it doesn't interest us.
This is good! Feel into this for a moment. What if it were true that literally everything interested you and everything were equally available for your to pursue via your talents, passion, and interest. How would you ever make a decision in which direction to go? The inherent limitations that your soul gives you is actually freedom designed to give you peak experiences in what is really a very short life.
So what happens when you have harnassed, cultivated, pursued, broke down, tuned up, prepared the parts of you that are yours in this lifetime? So, what i mean is, there is a whole lot of YOU ready to take a next step but the path still isn't clear because now there is an ease about how you feel about 'what you want to do' and you're just kind of open?
For me this is where the rubber meets the road, this is where it really gets interesting in terms of cosmos meeting incarnate. This is the time when, i think, it takes the most spiritual presence and listening that you have ever mustered in any of your explorations. Because, in a way, it doesn't matter what you do. You've been prepared to do whatever it is you're meant-to-do and it's time to make yourself available to just do it. 'Meant to do', for the record, is not an easy concept for me to accept. I don't like the idea of meant-to-do because it rigidly implies that we are not the captains of our own ships....not really. It implies that we are fulfilling some kind of an agenda of someone/something else.
That is one valid way of seeing it.
Feeling into it another way though, if we are souls playing around in the Oneness, and we do incarnate for the sake of furthering our spiritual beingness, and our 'choices' are limited because we are coming here to experience certain things during this particular incarnation, then why wouldn't it be that we are meant to be doing something? Meant to be, in that sense, then is the culmination of why we came here in the first place. So while it doesn't feel like it is entirely 'our' choice from the mortal perspective, from the perspective of the spiritual Self, from the soul level apriori incarnation, it makes perfect sense. Who we are did not begin here in the flesh. Who we are, was, before we were born, at the behest of who we Are in the realm of soul and spirit.
What you are meant to do is complete what you started long before you came here. No one was 'meant' to work at Walmart. Walmart or the post office or thousands of jobs that people show up at to make money to afford to life or raise their family or whatever. The circumstances of their lives are meant to provide the platform to connect them to the Self they are in the heavens. And this is where choice is radical: you have to do your work. In this lifetime, you have to do your radical preparation/exploration work in order to get to the meant to place.
So what do you do when you come to the place of having it all laid before you? how do you next choose? it seems like the choices have come to a kind of cadence? this is where you call upon yourself as Spirit in the most profound and direct way you maybe ever have before. Maybe it's time for you to meet your spirit self, and let yourself be lovingly guided to whatever it is you're meant to do. Because you're right, it doesn't matter what you 'do' from the perspective of how your mortal self feels about it. at this point, you are beyond the need for that kind of satisfaction. the choice you have to make isn't a choice to be made from the mortal level, because you have in a very real sense merged with your spirit self, and it's only your spirit self who has the grand picture of YOU, and what you're up to in this incarnation clearly in its sites.
This is a new kind of trust, a new kind of leap, and the next step for you. Feel into the radical spirit being you are, and let your future emerge from it. There is no going back, i'm sorry to say. That's just the truth. And you wouldn't want to knowing everything you now know. Yes this place you're in is uncomfortable, and somewhat frightening, but aren't all places of real growth kind of unsettling? we get very used to who we are as whatever beings we've come to see ourselves as. To let that go for what might be emerging, is quite a gesture of love, surrender and trust to greater picture of all that is, evolution itself, the destiny of life, and how your little role in it makes a profound difference.
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