Choice

Dearest, hi, I hope you're doing well holding all of this, it's a lot you're experiencing right now.  I can't tell you how much what you're going through resonates with me, and with situations I've been in....almost exactly.  It's a strange thing to be in love with two people at one, it's quite an exploration of Self, and the nature and meaning of love.  

We are expansive beings, the heart is capable of loving more than one person at once no doubt.  We are beautifully transpersonal and more complex and mysterious than our conscious minds will ever really understand.  But one thing I've realized as I work through this, in my experience because love is limitless, because we are infinite beings, because we are capable of such inclusion, 'choice' then is the Matrix upon which our lives ACTUALLY stand.  

Choice is everything.  The experiencing of being in love with two (or more) people at once is an experience.  It's meant to inform, guide, deepen, strengthen, but I don't think it's meant to be sustained indefinitely.  Again, this is my experience of it.  But in my experience, it's an incredible journey of the confusion and wisdom of the heart.  What is even more powerful though, is to choose.  How do you choose when the heart is pulling you in different directions?

The 'choice' isn't meant to be made with just the heart.  It's not meant to be made with your head either, in the way that your mind might say 'well, this is better for my kids, or my future, or whatever'  The choice is meant to be made with your entire beingness.  Choosing, or allowing yourself a particular direction, allows life to spring forth in a spectacular and specific way, in a way that you can't even see yet because you haven't made the choice.  

The sustaining of multiple worlds is an exploration, not a committment.  It's adventure of the unknown, into very true, very real, very deep lands that a wild open heart NEES to explore.  But true knowledge, true intimacy with your soul, comes from limiting ones options by making a choice.  

Whatever you think you're giving up, what you gain from this kind of 'sacrifice' is infinitely more valuable, beauitful, and transformative because it has the power of your humanity, your free will behind it.  It is a Conscious Creation, it is throwing your faith and trust into an infinitely benevolent Universe, one you believe is listening.  And the thing about choice is, you can always choose again.  You will always choose again.  And the more complex you allow your life to be the more interesting and challenging the choices become.  

Love is infinite, soul is infinite, who we are around these explorations is everything.  Every choice determines who we are, who we want to be in the world.  Choose consciously, inclusively, with deep heart and soul wisdom.  Be willing to give something up, you will be astonished by what you're given in return.