Your Mom and I haven't spoken in three weeks. I can't tell you how strange it is. I received a painting from her though, and it's dedicated to you. She sends me paintings to let me know I am still in her heart, while she takes this break, but she wants to remind me of her and of you in the paintings she sends me. Isn't that beautiful? you are going to love her.
She loves you so much. You can't know right now how much she loves you, but if you could, you would be overwhelmed. What she is doing right now, in being apart from me, she is doing for you. She is becoming her Self. She is living in the world of mystery and uncertainty. She is risking everything, in a way, because she really doesn't know if I'm going to be waiting for her when she's done. And by risking me, she's risking you. But she's doing it because she loves you so deeply. She knows she needs to become the person she needs to become, and the person you need her to become in order to be your Mom, and she can only do it through these fires and trials of life she's taking on. Isn't that amazing?
I think of her all day long....and the days are long while we're apart. But what i see when I think of her is a being so courageous, so full of heart and adventure, that getting to be born to her you are going to come into a life that is going to blow you away. I think of you every day my sweet baby. I can almost smell your skin, like I can smell your mom's. your brightness is blinding, and I have no idea how to express to the universe my gratitude for you. You are the greatest gift of my life.
love,
me
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